I asked Kim Hillier for permission to share as this goes along with our being stewards of our health. Thank you, Kim, for allowing us to share!

 *You’re tough.

*You’re independent.

*You know your own body.

I paused to ponder my list in case I had forgotten something.  It wasn’t long before my mind came up with another reason.  At first I rebelled.  Then I rejected.  Slowly I reviewed the reason. {Long pause}. Finally I resigned and archived the truth I now must face:  “You’re not complying because…”

Sometimes the truth smacks you so hard it erases any energy you might use to argue.  And there it was before me, the truth. I even said the words out loud, “I am being foolish.”

I’ve always harvested contempt for people I’ve labeled foolhardy. I slandered their totally irrational actions in such areas as relationships, finance, hobbies and child raising.  And now, because of my personal code of living by truth, I have to change.

I normally embrace change.  It usually ushers new experiences and a heightened level of insight.  Knowing I had a difficult task ahead of me, I began to dissect my decision to challenge medical instructions.

I knew what the reasons were supposed to be:  

 ✓ Too expensive.

✓ Too complicated.

✓ Rendered a bad result.

✓ Untrusted prescriber.

✓ Bad feeling in my gut.

I was very impressed with my list. I felt it was an excellent plan to apply to difficult decisions.  I had used it successfully many times.

I began to excitedly apply my premise…………………………………………It failed in 30 seconds and that included a second check.

I could waste your and my time in defending my presupposition, but all of a sudden, that pesky breeze of truth moved in, only now it was sunami-strengthed.  It presented flashing red lights in my brain,

Ignoring medical directions is foolish, stupid, dangerous, risky, irresponsible, petty, rebellious, childish, reprehensible, irritating, disobedient, traitorous, maybe even sinful!”

{Those all came from my mind.  No thesaurus used.  [Yes, I know.  I’m my own worst enemy.]}

 To finalize a decision as this, I take a senses retreat and singularly concentrate on the issue. {Yes I DO HAVE a lot of time on my hands.}

 I take a deep breath and acknowledge the benefits of my obedience:  less discomfort, reduced chance of infection, quicker recovery, etc.  Okay, I’m in.

 Whew:  Truth can be exhausting!